1/10/2026

did some shopping today. just got an email rejection from a job application I was really hopeful for. i wanted to at least interview. if i wasnt a good fit enough to even talk to for that, then what am I even a good fit for. I know that I'll have hundreds of rejections lookijg for a job, and this is just one. but i hate this so much. i hate myself so much.

1/9/2026

i almost broke my resolution immediately. But i will type something on my phone before I sleep. I won thay Zootopia 2 Nick Wilde figure at Akihabara GiGO 5. and I went to a Sushiro in Yurakucho with my family. good night.

oh, and we did a tea ceremony thing as well. that was fun.

1/8/2026

Oh yeah, looks Cyberduck works. There's probably more I could do to make updating the journal more user-friendly, but this is a good start.

Anyways, I'm in Japan right now. I've been here for about a week now. It's great timing. All of the collab cafes and pop-up shops and stuff for the release of Zootopia 2 are happening right now in Japan. I completed the Tokyo Metro Zootopia 2 Stamp Rally, went to a pop up shop, when to a collab cafe, and won some Zootopia prizes from a claw machine. I plan on going to the GiGO Building 5 in Akihabara tomorrow, since there's some kind of new Nick Wilde figure that will debut in a claw machine there. This has really turned into a Zootopia trip in many ways. There's not really Zootopia fandom merch in the United States though, so it's excellent.

My dad has also finally arrived in Tokyo today. I showed him around the Mega Don Quijote in Shibuya. I love that place. We also went to an Ichiran. And we met up with my sister (who is also in Tokyo now) to go do the whole top deck tour at the Tokyo Tower. Doing all of the touristy things, you know? So that's all been good.

1/8/2026

ugh, 2026. Welp.

I'm trying the WebDAV thing. I want to make it less inconvenient for me to update this page, since ideally I'd like to treat this journal more like a diary. But I'm lazy, so if there's too much friction updating the page every day, I know that I'm just not going to do it eventually.

12/17/2025

I survived my 2nd ETC project. I haven't noted anything about it here, but it was largely a success, despite great adversity. And those of my peers who know me know well what that adversity is. But I won't say more here, although I know that the people I wouldn't want to know all my thoughts will never see this.

Anyways, I also just fixed up my portfolio page a bit, and I'm working on a little silly slot machine game. I do despise the modern proliferation of gambling, with the legalization of online sports betting books and all that... but I can't help but be a hypocrite when it comes to classic video slot machines. They're so maximalist, I just can't resist them.

I gotta put give it its own page, once it's done. I also just need to finish more pages around here. This place is like a one-room apartment at the moment. I have started compressing many of the images I use here, so that it doesn't take one million years to load everything.

11/2/2025

Finally put a star on the index watchman. Gotta finish filling that out eventually...

08/20/2025

Back from Worldcon 2025, reorganized my portfolio page and changed up its color scheme. Also linked some more random experimental pages here, but they're a bit broken.

I tried out VSCode's Copilot integrated assistant features, so that I could get a sense of what "vibe coding" is actually like. You know, gotta know my enemy, in a sense. But now that I've enabled it once, even now it's trying to suggest what text I should be writing here, like an overeager puppy. It worked surprisingly well, although I ended up having to rip of the overly clean page it generated for me and add some of the organic grime that I like. I'm not sure. It's such an odd feature to me. I can't say it doesn't work, but it feels... wrong.

It feels as though every conversation I have about my studies end up coming around to AI. Especially with non-technical people. Everyone has to ask me about what I think about Copilot coming into the professional workspace, and I have to explain that I don't think it will replace programmers that I think that it is bitterly ironic that it seems poised to replace software developers before it replaces artists. But I think that that's natural. Programming is seen as a means to produce a product, not something with soul. Of course a machine could replace that. The notion makes me sad, but I don't think that enough people share the same wonder for computers these days, and so what can you do? I should at least know what seems to be coming.

Writing this down here, so that I can see how my outlook has changed in the future.

07/24/2025

Marking this day as the day that I have returned to finish making this place. So much to do, both here and outside. Things are so stressful these days, but I Feel oddly like I have a solid grasp on everything. We'll see how long that lasts.

02/10/2025

Okay, I really need to go to sleep. I have a bunch of meetings tomorrow, and I gotta finish (fix) my computer graphics homework. My line rasterizer is still super scuffed.

02/10/2025

Working on this into midnight, that makes this the second day. Heck yeah

02/09/2025

I can't tell if this site is impossible to look at or if I've just been staring at it for too long.